Time

My heavens, Lucas has TWO teeth coming in now! It's amazing how fast he's growing. I say that almost every day; but every day he grows more and more! Every day he gets smarter and smarter. Something I'm learning about my baby is that he isn't shy. He goes somewhere new, or someone new comes over to visit and he sits quietly and watches. Some people who don't know him think he's shy. However, if you watch closely and get to know this little miracle, you'll find that he's simply observing. He's more of a sponge than I've ever seen in a baby. He is so curious and loves to learn about everything! I love to watch him look around and grab at things that spark his interest. Lucas is going to be a bright young boy when he starts school!

Anyway, I am full of so many emotions when it comes to this little guy. I am full of love, fear, and excitement for him! Love- for all the obvious reasons. He brings me so much joy! Fear- for many reasons. Every time I leave the room he's in, at least one thought of what could happen to him while I'm not looking goes through my head. I'm always thinking of those things when I walk out the door and go to work. I wish more than anything that I could be a stay-at-home mom. I wish I could be with him always and just build a schedule around that. Go on walks, to the park, have picnics, go shopping, and do whatever! I love to spend time with him and get to know him as he's changing every day. I love being a single mom, because he's mine all mine, and I get all the loves! I get all the fun, and I get to raise him how I see fit! That's one of the best parts!

Excitement! I'm so excited to see him grow; to see him learn more and more. I am so excited to wake up and see his beautiful face every morning! To see all those smiles; to hear him talk and say his first word; to see him take his first steps, and some day hear him call me "momma"!  My Lucas Isaiah bring excitement into my life! He brings me everything I want, and gives my life so much meaning. I need nothing more than what I have now, as long as I have him to live for. He keeps me going every day. I love that I had to grow up. It was about time. I love this new me, and I love that he brought it out of me. My God is great, and He put Lucas into my life!